Stupid Love.

So Helen wanted to see "the wonderful masterpiece" that I've been working and complaining about this weekend: the dreaded reflective piece of writing that we got given to do in English about our feelings on love! I might add to this before handing it in on Monday but here it is at it's point just now :P

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Reflective Writing
Love

This thing called love. It's one of the main things that I know I want in life and that I put a lot of my trust in finding. In my opinion love is the emotion you feel when you have a deep connection with another person, whether it's a friend, family member or partner. It gives people hope and someone to turn to when they need a shoulder to cry on or on the other hand someone there for when they're celebrating news that no-one else would find exciting.

I think the media influences me a lot in what I believe about love since most of the TV shows that I watch have at least one couple that I end up dedicating hours to searching the internet for pictures of. Seriously, I have hundreds of pictures on my iPod of fictional couples I fell for straight away. I also have a wall next to my computer filled with pictures of people I love, such as the friends that I could not get through my life without.

Based what I've watched in films, TV and real life I think that there's some people who are destined to be together, even if they're complete opposites. For example, in the TV show 'The X-Files' Fox Mulder believes in all kinds of extraterrestrial phenomena while his partner, Dana Scully, tries to make a scientific reason for the strange events that they see. Yet over the course of the seasons we see that they go from trusting no-one to only believing in the other. It's that sort of relationship that I would want; defying everything that anyone else says just to fall in love with the one person I never thought I would.

Most of the DVDs in my bedroom can be simply put into the genre of romance. I just seem to have some sort of magnetic field that picks up on that kind of film and forces me to buy it. Even after only the first few scenes I want the two lead characters to get together and fall madly and deeply in love. My most watched movie is either 'Something's Gotta Give' or 'You've Got Mail', which not only have some of my favourite lead actors – Diane Keaton, Jack Nicholson, Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks – but also create the best story lines that I can think of. They both show how people from different lives and even business rivals can do what they fear most and fall for the other person.

This probably makes me sound as though I would believe in love at first sight but I don't. I think that you might feel an instant want for the person but you need to get to know what they are like first and even if you try to deny enjoying their company, like in 'You've Got Mail', you have to see what is in their personality.

I'm probably the most romantic out of all my friends, I always want to see that there's a happily ever after for everyone. Even our reading habits show this off: I read books that tell me there's a lost love or two unlikely characters falling in love, whereas they would rather read ones by Stephen King where everyone dies or gets horrifically injured. This shows my point that polar opposite people do suit each other, I couldn't imagine what I would be like without the friends that I've met since coming up to high school. I love them and they probably don't really know it because I try to hide my feelings when I'm talking to them face-to-face. I am much more comfortable telling them how I feel over the internet since they can't see how much I smile when they say something nice or encouraging to me. I should tell them how much they mean to me in case something happens but I know they aren't the type of people who would think I was just being stupid and tell me to go back to being the person who comes out with things that don't even make sense. That's what they love about me.

I know I wouldn't be here without my family and although I do love them, I don't think I have ever told them so and probably never will. My mum and I argue on almost a daily basis and I am the first to admit I've told people I hate her but she's always there for me if I ask her for it. Until a few weeks ago she didn't even know what I wanted to do in the future but she knew me well enough to suggest forensics and although that can't happen because of the subject choices I have made, I do want to pursue a career in biomedicine which is all about disease so it's quite close to her thoughts.

My dad and I have always got on better with each other, I'm much closer to him than my mum. I would probably tell him how I feel before going to her, it's how it's always been in my family; me and dad getting on and my mum and brother on the other side. It's how it's supposed to be and what we're used to, we know we love each other but don't say it. I don't think I've ever even heard my parents say it. That's probably why I put so much time in to fictional pairings, they usually say it by the halfway point of the film and I like seeing the differences between that and my own life.